Chocolate Cherry Brownie Pudding

(continued) Chapter 3: Singapore (2000-2007 / 2008 - 2009)

[Trigger alert- heavy content]

Everything happens for a reason. Even though you don’t see it in that moment.

In Sep 2007, I switched jobs and moved briefly to Hong Kong to be closer to the boyfriend. It was one of the boldest things I’ve done, since I had no idea where that relationship was going yet. In Dec 2007, after fully recovering from the accident (yes, it took a while!), my mum visited Hong Kong. I couldn’t wait for her to meet the boy. I was nervous, but the meeting couldn’t have gone better. We picked a seaside restaurant, ordered loaded nachos, dug in with our hands, and laughed so much. I was overjoyed.

One evening I asked my mum, “How do you know if someone is the one”. And she replied. “You never do really. The only thing you can do is test them in good and bad times. Good times are a ton and easy to test. It’s the tough times that are harder to find.” Little did she know that in a few weeks, she would prove her own statement wrong.

Jan 12, 2008. I can never forget the day. We had our first big couple fight. There was anger on both sides, and we’d planned to meet at a cafe at 4pm to talk it out. In retrospect, it wasn’t a big deal at all. We also had a pizza dinner + movie booked with some friends after. We met, chatted, and life seemed normal again. Pizza was delicious, and with a full belly we got on to the famous Hong Kong city tram for a little ride before the movie. 7pm, my phone rang. I glanced at my phone - it was mum. It was noisy, but I excitedly picked up and said “Guess where I am mummy!”. Silence. Dad spoke. I sensed something wasn’t right the minute I heard his voice on mums mobile. “Oh hi” I’d said “kya ho raha hai “ (what’s happening?). His voice was broken and barely audible. I only heard words “Shuchi…….mummy……robbery……murder”.

I must’ve collapsed because I don’t remember the next few hours. Or the next few weeks or months after that phone call. In a single instant, my entire life - our entire lives- had been turned upside down. In an instant a lot had been taken away. In an instant, I was numb.

I rushed to India with my brother, wishing every minute I would wake up to a dream. I can’t sum up the days or weeks that followed in any number of sentences, but I only remember I tried very hard to make sense of it all. I simply couldn’t. This is stuff you read in the news, it’s not real. It doesn’t happen to real families. Ah, but it does. The rest of 2008 is a complete blur. And all I remember now of those days are the people who were by my side.

My mum was a good person, the glue of the family, a simple & kind heart, an artist, the best cook, the queen of rescue recipes. She could’ve done much more in life, but decided to put family first. I concluded (after many years of the incident) that perhaps this was the challenge, the tough times, she needed me to test, in order to create my own family. Cruel.

I don’t talk about this. Ever. So it has been tough to pen it down. And as I relive that pain, I couldn’t think of a better recipe to commemorate her than one that is something sweet, and born out of disaster. An ungreased brownie pan, several broken brownies, and an accidental custard led me to create this ‘rescue’ pudding.

Take a bite. Hope it helps you see reason during the trying times in your life.

Ingredients

For the brownies

180 g semisweet dark chocolate, broken into pieces

100 g milk chocolate, broken into pieces

2 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder

110 g unsalted butter

3 eggs

3/4 cup brown sugar

1/4 teaspoon salt

Dash of vanilla essence

3/4 cup whole wheat flour (Indian atta)

1 cup fresh ripe cherries, pitted and cut into pieces

For the cardamom milk creme

1.5 cups + 2 tablespoons whole milk

2 tablespoons condensed milk

3 green cardamoms, crushed

1 tablespoon corn starch or plain custard powder

Sugar to taste

Method

Make the brownies

(This is my classic brownie recipe, with a few substitutions - fresh seasonal juicy cherries in place of nuts/chocolate chips and healthier wholewheat flour (commonly known as Atta in India) instead of all purpose white flour)

Sift together the flour and salt and keep aside.

Preheat the oven to 350F / 180 C, and grease a brownie pan or mini muffin pan and keep aside. 

Melt together both the chocolates and butter on a water bath (i.e. in a pot placed over another pot of simmering water) till smooth. Mix in the cocoa powder & sugar, and mix well. Let the mixture cool a bit. Once cooled, add the eggs one at a time, beating well after each addition. The mixture will begin to thicken and start to come together. Stir in the vanilla essence and finally add the flour + salt mixture. Mix just enough to incorporate the flour into the batter. Finally add the cherries, reserving some to sprinkle on top. 

Bake the brownies for 20-25 minutes, till a toothpick comes out almost clean, with little bits of cooked batter sticking to it. Unlike cake, if you wait for the toothpick to come out completely clean, the centre will overcook and dry out. Also, if you are using a mini muffin pan, they'll bake much quicker (under 20 minutes), so keep an eye (and nose!) out for them. You definitely do not want to over bake these - a brownie is only as good as it's fudgy centre! However, if you do over bake them, rest assured that this pudding will cover that flaw.

Once baked, cool the brownies to room temperature. These can be stored in airtight container for a week in cool weather. In summer, I'd store them in the fridge after 1-2 days.

Make the cardamom milk creme

In a deep pot, bring 1.5 cups of milk + condensed milk + cardamom to a simmer. Mix the corn starch or custard powder in 2 tbsp milk, and slowly add to the simmering milk. The mixture will begin to thicken. Reduce the heat to a low simmer, and let the milk thicken to half its initial volume. Discard the cardamom skins, adjust sugar, and pour the syrup in mini dessert cups, filling about 1/3rd. Reserve some for the top of the puddings. Refrigerate the cups to chill - the creme will thicken further.

When ready to eat, warm the brownies a little and crush them on top of the cardamom creme. Add more syrup on top. Enjoy the hot and cold, cherry, chocolate and cardamom, do a wonderful dance in your mouth!

Pudding: Peach & Rum Trifle

"Through my recipes and words,  I'll relive my mum,

She who taught me to cook, and make it a chore fun.

As she sifted, measured & baked, raising an eyebrow to me

'Would you a spoon a dollop, and lick the batter to see?'

Hell yes, the best part of being sous chef it was!

Life in the kitchen, she said, is a life without laws...

So today, as I remember her smiles, frowns & rage

Wishing she was here, to taste my batter for a change!

I whip up a colourful treat, for mums everywhere, 

Those that are, will be, or love one who endlessly shares.."

[Continued] Chapter 1: Food As I Knew It (1982-2008)

There is no better recipe, than one born out of disaster.

My parents lived in Bangalore for around 7 years from 1998-2005. Some of the most fun and exploratory years of our lives. During this time, I also had the opportunity to leave my boarding school, and do a short stint at a local school for a year. I was 16.

Joining a new school at 16 is hard. Everyone is already sorted in multiple levels of ‘cool’, and usually no one wants the new kid. But, fortunately for me, my packed lunches drew attention for swaps (and the girls were actually lovely and some of my closest friends till date!). Given the growing followers of my meals, I luckily made some great friends (yes, food can take you places). And so, my mother had to invite them over for lunch. It is what she did.

At 16 you are skeptical of anything your parents do. So I peered and critiqued every dish she put on the menu, and sulked around the kitchen while she prepped the day before my friends were coming over. As she sensed my disapproval, she jokingly said “aur kuch nahin toh dessert toh hai” - meaning “if nothing else works, the dessert will save the day”. Dessert was store bought ice cream. I loved my mums food, but was adamant there had to be at least one thing ‘teenager approved’ on the menu. She didn’t fight it.

India has a lot of power cuts. And they always come at the worst possible time. This time was no different. The electricity board must have sensed my anxiety and decided to cut off power the morning the friends were coming over. Thankfully most food was cooked and ready to go, but oh hell, what about the ice cream! This is where mum was supermum. Instead of biting her nails like I was, she swept in all her tools, and gave me her plan. She said, let’s make a trifle! ….Stay with me here.

My mothers’ trifles were famous. So I HAD to trust her here. Trifle is a layered dessert of cake, cream or custard and seasonal fruit. Ice cream is made of cream/custard, so melted ice cream can be used in place of custard for layering. But where was the cake? Ah, chocolate cakes were a backhand for my mother and she could bake one up with eyes closed. Even on the stove top (using a pressure cooker). An hour later, the kitchen smelled heavenly, and we were busy layering the cake with that melted ice cream and oranges. I was so proud of her. She most definitely sensed my love and relief.

My friends and I had a lovely lunch. Towards the end, one of them asked my mum “Aunty, you HAVE to give me the recipe for that dessert. It was spectacular”. We both just looked at each other and giggled. She then said “Shuchi made dessert today”.

Bangalore was full of such fun memories. But sadly it did not end well. But more on that another time with another recipe…

Todays’ recipe is dedicated to that ‘disaster’ trifle my mum conjured from the dark. These are mini party versions, and are soft, slightly boozy, bundles of sponge cake slathered with layers of custard, cream & sweet rum caramelised peaches. Not a fan of peaches? You can always replace with a soft fruit of choice (mango is another favourite of mine!).

Ingredients

1 medium round sponge cake [I used this easy recipe but you can buy one off a bakery as well]

For the custard [ I like making it from scratch, but for a quick (perhaps disaster saving) version, you can use store bought or a custard mix as well]

1/2 cup heavy cream

1 cup whole milk

5 green cardamoms, crushed

2 tablespoons brown sugar

2 tablespoons cornstarch

1 teaspoon vanilla essence

A pinch of salt

Others

12 teaspoons + 1 tablespoon dark rum

1/2 cup heavy cream

2 tablespoons maple syrup

6-8 fresh ripe peaches, pitted and sliced (replace with tinned if out of season)

1 cup warm whole milk

Method

To make the custard, mix the milk, cream & crushed cardamoms, and bring to a simmer. Make a paste with a tablespoon of the warm milk mixture, corn starch & salt. Slowly add the corn starch paste to the simmering milk, stirring continuously, till the milk begins to thicken. Let it bubble for few seconds and then remove from heat. Discard the cardamom skin, and stir in the sugar + vanilla essence. Keep aside to cool.

Beat the cream with maple syrup till soft peaks form. Refrigerate.

Put the peach slices, along with a teaspoon of brown sugar, in a non stick pan on high heat. As the sugar begins to caramelise, add 1 tablespoon of rum and give it a quick toss. Remove from heat, and keep aside to cool.

Cut out 2 inch rounds from the sponge cake and slice each round in half. Layer one half at the bottom of your serving dish. (Depending on the size and shape of serve ware you are using, you could just put rough pieces of cake at the bottom as well). Soak it in some warm milk & a teaspoon of rum, and press it down slightly. Put a dollop of custard, followed by a dollop of whipped cream, and then a slice of the caramelised peach. Top with the other half of the cake and repeat the layers. Do this with all the rounds from the cake. Don't throw away the remaining corners & crumbles from the cake! Make extra portions with the leftover pieces of cake just for yourself!

This dessert tastes great after 24 hours, and even better after 48! Trust me, everyone will want the last pot.

White Chocolate & Cardamom Kheer (Rice Pudding)

“A gift from my kitchen

Straightforward & fast,

Wholesome, with spices

That’ll fill up your heart.

Call it comfort-ilicious

Or flavors in a bowl,

It’ll complete your meal

And warm up the soul..

Oh and did I mention

A boil is all it needs,

Simple to make, yet tasty?

Now that’s a recipe for keeps!”

Ingredients (serves 4)

2 cups whole milk

6 tablespoons white Basmati rice

3 green cardamoms, crushed

2 tablespoons brown sugar

6-8 pitted dates, hydrated & chopped

8-10 pieces of white chocolate

In a deep-bottomed pan, bring to boil the milk, cardamom & sugar. Once boiled, add the rice and cook on medium low flame so the mixture is just simmering. Continue to cook till the rice is soft and fully cooked. Turn heat to high and give it another boil to slightly thicken the kheer. [PS-At this stage, it’s already a delicious pudding and can be eaten as is. But the next step just adds a creamy twist to it..]. Discard any cardamom skin, and stir in the dates & white chocolate. Mix well till the chocolate is fully melted.

Chill for 2 hours & serve with a dash of cinnamon & caramel!